The Essence of Me December 16, 2010
Posted by angeleyes71 in life, Uncategorized, writing.Tags: blog, essence, follow, personal, writing
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I apologize for not keeping up with this blog 
I have two other blog sites that I also maintain and it’s been too difficult to keep up with this one as well.
If you’d like, you can continue to read my posts on The Essence of Me which is more of a personal blog as well as the Journey of a Writer which is my writing blog.
I hope to see you at one of these sites. Have a wonderful holiday season! 
Happy Thanksgiving! November 24, 2010
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I wanted to wish everyone in the US a very bountiful and happy Thanksgiving Day tomorrow! For the rest, have a great one and the weekend’s coming
Tidbits November 18, 2010
Posted by angeleyes71 in illness, life, NaNoWriMo, rambling, writing.Tags: illness, National Novel Writing Month, personal, writing
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Sorry for the hiatus. It’s been a busy month thus far. I’m participating in NaNoWriMo and as of this morning I’m over 24,000 words. I’m behind (s/b at 30k) but I’m not really worried about it. I can catch up over the weekend. Actually, I’m kind of surprised to still be in it since November didn’t start out well at all. I was hit with two migraine attacks. Then hubby came down with pneumonia one week; the next week my son had bronchitis. And today I’m home sick with the same crud. Some days you just can’t win.
That’s okay. I’m on antibiotics now and by the time the weekend gets here, I’ll feel well enough to do pretty much anything I set my mind to.
P.S. Once NaNoWriMo is wrapped up, I will post part two of “A Matter of Belief.”
A Haiku and Update October 30, 2010
Posted by angeleyes71 in haiku, musing, NaNoWriMo, rambling, writing.Tags: haiku, National Novel Writing Month, writing
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The veil in the sky
Casts darkness across all lands
As death rides the wind
I’m glad to see the month of October come to the end. It’s been an unusually warm month for North Carolina as Fall hasn’t even really hit here yet. I’m starting to wonder if we’ll even have a Fall this year. November’s almost finally here which means it’s almost NaNoWriMo time I try to participate in the National Novel Writing Month each year though last year I didn’t. I won once and that’s a very nice feeling after cranking out at least 50,000 words in 30 days. I hope to do it again this year.
For those who will be participating this year, add me as your buddy (my username is AngelEyesGolden) and I’ll do the same for you. For those who want to know more about this, check out the website at NaNoWriMo.
Have a great weekend everyone
A Quote I Really Like October 20, 2010
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I came across this quote that I really liked and wanted to share:
“If you would be a real seeker after truth, it is necessary that at least once in your life you doubt, as far as possible, all things.”—Rene Descartes
Shadows-A Free Verse Poem October 16, 2010
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Here is the free verse poem I wrote some years ago that described my experience with the shadow people:
Shadows
As a young girl, I once had an experience
that I believed was not a dream
As dawn broke, I looked down the hallway
from my bedroom
And saw a pair of shadows
moving along the wall
It was of a man sitting in a wheel chair
who was being pushed by a tall man with an afro
They were only shadowy figures, nothing more
Or were they?
As these shadows slowly crept down the wall
no human forms would emerge
Being quite frightened, I flung the bedcovers over my head
and waited
Much to my horror, there were pairs of hands pawing at me,
as if they were trying to get past the covers
I was too terrified to call out to my parents
as I laid as still as I could
Next thing I knew, I was opening my eyes
and found myself still beneath the sheets
Slowly, I peered out from underneath
and was met by the full, morning sunlight
The prying hands and dark shadows were gone
thank goodness!
To this very day, some thirty years later
I can still remember those frightening moments
as if they had just occurred
Was it a dream?
Or, was I visited by some supernatural beings?
This, I may never truly know.
The Top 5 Things That Haunt Me October 16, 2010
Posted by angeleyes71 in 9/11, Halloween, haunting events.Tags: Halloween, hauntings
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Halloween is just around the corner, and in the spirit of the season here are the 5 things or events that continue to haunt me:
!. Sharks (no thanks to the movie, Jaws, which I watched at a very young age. I’ve been afraid of the deep ever since)
2. My close encounter with the shadow people at the age of 6 (what freaked me out the most was when I was touched by one)
3. September 11, 2001
4. The death of my first husband
5. Wild dogs (I’ve been attacked a few times by “domestic” dogs but had reoccurring dreams of being hunted and attacked by coy dogs)
What haunts you?
A Matter Of Belief Part One October 8, 2010
Posted by angeleyes71 in beliefs, contemplating, life.Tags: beliefs, life, musing
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As I stated in a previous post, I’ve been questioning many things including my beliefs. Having been raised in a Christian family, attended a Baptist church, and gone to a private school run by that same church, I pretty much took every thing at face value without question.
If the pastor, deacons, and various members say it were so, then it must be true. For much of my life I allowed others to shape my belief system. As the result, I never discovered who I truly was, and lacked the ability (and courage) to stand up for what I believed in because it wasn’t my belief system but someone else’s.
Is it amazing how one’s personal experiences over the course of a lifetime can alter how you view things? Many choose not to embrace these experiences as lessons we can use to grow as individuals, and to become what we’re meant to be. Some probably believe that it’s too late to change; or, perhaps the change would cause too great of an upheaval on the family and friends.
Since I was about seven years old, my life has been impacted by death. An uncle died suddenly of a massive heart attack. A few years later, I lost a close cousin to Muscular Dystrophy. When I was sixteen, I lost two friends; one to bone cancer, and the other was kidnapped and murdered. The list goes on, but you get the idea.
Most of the people who died were, in my mind, young enough to still have their whole lives ahead of them. Why would a merciful God allow these things to happen to them? Then my next question would tend to be, what really happen when someone dies? And for those left behind, how and what can they do to cope with the loss and go on with their lives? Many turn to a church for comfort, and even for answers.
This was what I did for a while, but that would change after the death of my first husband.
It’s Time October 2, 2010
Posted by angeleyes71 in contemplating, life.Tags: beliefs, contemplating, life, midlife crisis, reawakening
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“The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing.”-Albert Eistein
I tend to question everything. When I was a girl, I took whatever I was told as gospel. I grew up in a conservative, Christian family, attended the services every Sunday at a Baptist church, went to a private school ran by a church; so I was basically told what I should and needed to believe in.
What changed? Well, for one, I am older and I like to say wiser but I’m not sure about that yet. I have years of various life experiences under my belt (pardon the clichés here). Married twice, widowed once. Have a child, miscarried one. Dealt with dream-busting disabilities. Lost close friends and relatives who had whole lives ahead of them. With the heartaches and losses during my 39-years of life (so far), I am finding that I can’t just accept things to be fact because it is what I’m told. I need to know without a shout of a doubt that this is what I truly believe is true. I suppose you could call this a midlife crisis. I like to think of it as a reawakening. In the coming days and weeks I will write various posts that deal with this “reawakening.”
It’s time to discover the truth as they are to me. It is time to find out what I believe in and to make a stand for that belief. It is time to find out who I really am.
